Run Away With Me

today I went looking for a thrill

took a drag and drank a beer

don't know what I'm lookin for

but it sure as fuck, isn't here

I got nothin to tie me down

and i've got no where better to be

think I just might leave town

ya I think I might leave town

if this is it then I don't really care

because in the end, it's not even all that wierd

think I just might leave town

ya I think I might leave town

the other day I woke up

from another 2 hours of sleep

feels like I've been awake forever

but at the time still asleep

I ran away and saw my friend

saw just how happy she was there

even though she was a little drunk

seemed she also didn't care

if this is it then I don't really care

because in the end, it's not even all that wierd

think I just might leave town

ya I think I might leave town

summer's here but it won't stay

nothing gold ever can

though we can try an fight it

I won't question why I should've ran

won't find myself at school

can't figure out what I wanna do

I don't know where my life is going

but right now it's going no where too

if this is it then I don't really care

because in the end, it's not even all that wierd

if this is it then I don't really care

because in the end, it's not even all that wierd

Broken

I figure I must be broken

my will to destroy myself is gone

is this what happiness is?

satisfaction with myself

and a healthy mind

have I been alerted to a higher calling

my sleep deprevation allowing me to think clearly

my own smug self worth letting me be satisfied with sobriety

Is my life so good that another bottle of whiskey won't make it better

why

where did all the bad dreams go

the liquor once like drain-o

for my misery clogged mind

a sink full of dirty wishes

I could climb forever and never reach the top

but now that I'm looking down I wonder why I never stopped

was I really happy hoping for a better tomorrow

and now that it's here what is there left for me here?

Must I sacrifice my love of the drink for bliss

if so I gladly cast thee aside

who knew that my crutch was keeping me crippled for so long

I knew, but still I felt it did no wrong

I knew, but I hoped I was lying again

Adventures in Sanity

but I prefer the dreams in my head to reality

because in my mind I am entertained and out here I'm just me

I'd sleep all day and night if given the oppurtunity

because I prefer the inside of my eyelids to your reality

Joining my body with toxic narcotic substances

the abundances of redundency leaves me astounded

while my head is resounded with psychedelic imagery

flattery will get me everywhere but achieve nothing

In my head the voices speak their mind

and in my mind, the voices are mine

so much better than real life I can do what I want

I can explore the many placets of life and not be distracted

by other people's responses to my ill-informed decisions

The dead come back to party once again

sorry about your shed

rocketfire bongloads washing the blood off my hands

I feel the need to tell you things, I still don't understand

I imagine a world free from restraint where I'm accepted for who I am

where everyone is lovely and beautiful and free

these dreams tell me the secrets my heart hides

revealing the truths that I am unwilling to admit

to spend a day inside my mind is fallacy

you'd need at least a century to discover my whole dynasty

I lie to me, I decieve and trick myself

I am honest in my dreams and in my dreams I'm always happy

Aches & Pain

green

green and purple

and spots of bright red

the evenings spent boring

the holes in my head

securing a place and marking it right

until the acid drains in

and I'm swallowed by the night

Faded lines still mark the place

the burnt images still react

the reflection in the mirror

a daily reminder of our sins

and soon into the night

like all before us

we will find ourselves lost again

consumed by an encompassing Fury

that daybreak thrusts upon us

the burning feeling felt when the jaws clamp shut

biting down on the bit

fighting the urge to wail

though our flesh lay impaled

reaction time is dimmed

the dopamine released into

the bloodstream with each passing moment

encourages the gnawing of our own flesh

for the sting it delivers to us

and I bit my own lip today

just to feel it ache

Fantasy we Sail away

the world and it's problems

an oyster with a pearl that can solve them

but once we find solace

in the places we've encountered

we'll soon find ourselves spinning

before an inconquerable tidal wave

and whereupon we find ourselves there

that place we found that meant disaster

once before the sky turns gray

and the heavens open up to swallow us

we will find ourselves once more

before the eye of the storm

to stand at the edge and peer over

grasping the concept few understand

staring deep into the abyss and holding

holding close the few things we have left

we prepare to cast them adrift

but still the mind wanders

to think about what use they still might hold

We wade into the waters of our oppression

waiting for the right moment to strike

but when, like fools born from men we are,

merely mortal men miss the mark

and like the predictable nature of our ancestors

our tendencies tend to jump the shark

It's Ok, I'm an M-Man

sickness what a lovely time to be deformed
and a whole new world out there to explore
birth of a new flower I walk by my side
trying to match eachother stride for stride

While all contagious pathogens fail
to kill my spirits I still get up
every morning and put on my torn jeans
I step outside into the sun

Born again from the fires of putrifaction
like a wailing corpse in the moonlit streets
looking for a dream to chase
though maybe I'm a masochist

waking up each morning
with a new pill in my hand
is this just auditory hallucinations
because my life is rather bland

but the sparks ignite the underbrush
and the trees go up in flame
a controlled burn is just what we need
to release the mind from itself

stained windows
glare at me from across the way
the donning of the mantle
to start another day

with a little help from my friend's
I will climb the ladder unto Olympus
bring an end to the wrath of the gods
and have forgiveness once again

Inside Microsoft Internet explorer's testing lab

I eviscerated my lover's flesh
carving at the rippling sinew
I can feel the fear coursing through her body
flowing out of her veins, and onto the icy concrete below
some of it spilled onto my bare feet, I could feel it running between my toes
it felt like warm syrup as it raced towards the grime-covered drain

My fingers ran their way over her body
paying special attention to her exposed rib cage
the tight muscles I peeled off showed white bone stained with crimson
revealed all I needed to know about her

every secret was as exposed as her entrails
it's strange that someone can hide from us all their lives
but once you split open their bowels you can see everything
their last meal
everything.